i have so much to say that i don’t know how to put it in words.
today was soohyun’s 1st memories in singapore and i attended it with half a heart (because of external problems) but everything went away when i saw his face. when he first came out on stage i remember thinking that he was shining. his smile was so genuine and FREAKING adorable it made me want to squish him so bad.
the overall fanmeet’s program was actually rather disappointing (well, every stop was the same) because we didn’t get to play any games with him at all. BUT, soohyun literally had the worst jokes in the history of worst jokes and it was so adorable seeing him trying to ‘apologize’ for his lameness!!! he went on and on about how the fishes were looking at him from under the frozen lake (referring to a photo at the filming of ywcfts) and then saying we’re silly for believing his lies (NO ONE BELIEVED PLS)
he would stutter and go 'ummm’ in the most adorably way when he couldn’t think of his answer (although i’m pretty sure he’s just acting cute).
unlike other stops, in singapore we had a special way to submit our wishes for soohyun to grant which is to upload a selfie with our ticket onto instagram, and these screenshots were put up on a tree on the stage for soohyun to pick out. although i wasn’t picked, i have a photo where he was looking at my screenshot!!!! T_T AM I NOT PRETTY ENOUGH OR???? (plus i’m sure they filtered the submissions and there must have been a reason why i was hung at the front because i didnt wish for autograph or photo or anything but to have him write his name with his butt LOL but soohyun picked from the back u_u)
and then right at the last part – soohyun started bawling really bad and i was pretty sure i broke there and then. it was that kind of feeling – i didn’t even know how to feel, i felt so lost that i couldn’t even shed a tear even though soohyun sobbed so hard. it was there and then that i realized why soohyun had a special place in my heart, away from all the other idols and singers that i adore – because he showed the most genuine side of him and has the kindest of hearts.
i will never forget this day, or the face of the man i adore.
(wow i’ve never actually done this for any other idol sorry this isn’t exactly a fan account is it HAHAHA IM JUST RANTING OK BYE)
Label: SM Entertainment (FIRST TRY IT’S FATE)
Members: 7
Role: Vocals
Collabs: Beast (Second was SHINee v.v)
Years Together: 9
Solo: Yes
I think I’ve won this round. I really want to know what my sub-vocalist solo career would be like though.
You’d probably be a musical actress.
Mine was SM, 12 members, Lead Rapper, Collab with Mblaq, 15 years together, solo career. Bahahaha. I am all about that.
label: SM
Members: 7
My role: visual
group collabs: super junior
years together: 9
do you go solo: yes
I am like 99% positive that my group would be pretty sad looking if I was the visual. ahahaha
label: YG
Members: 4
My role: Leader
group collabs: F(x)
years together: 8
do you go solo: YesSM, 9 members, maknae, Super Junior, 8 years, no… I’m the maknae in everything IRL guh…
cube, 7 members, leader (we’re screwed), 2PM, 4 years, no… crying we’ll last only 4 years bc i’m a horrible leader
rating: pg
word count: 703 words
pairings: go figure, sherlock
“So tell me, hyung, how did you do it?” Sehun asks through a mouthful of food. Truth be told, he couldn’t care less. Maybe it just felt like the right thing to ask someone like Chanyeol. Someone who can’t care less about the others around him, until he gets what he wants.
Maybe Chanyeol is just that type of friend.
“Which ‘it’ are you referring to?”
“You know what I’m talking about. How did you, you know, get your way this time with Jongin?”
“I didn’t do anything,” Chanyeol grins, “It’s just the way things are.”
“You hurt him.”
“I didn’t—he loves me.”
“You hurt Kyungsoo hyung. He’s one of your closest friends, and you still chose to hurt him.”
Chanyeol laughs for a moment, a laugh slightly uncalled for, tittering on the line of smug and perhaps a very tiny amount of guilt. “There was nothing I could do about it. Jongin chose—“
“Chose? Perhaps to you, it may seem like he picked you,” Sehun places his chopsticks aside, “But that was never the case.”
“No, you don’t get it. Jongin loves me, and I love him. There’s nothing more right in this.”
“You don’t get it do you, hyung? You hurt people. That’s what you do. You hurt them and then you drop them, like it was never your problem to begin with. You don’t even only hurt people, you wreck everything around them. You’re a wrecker. It’s sick, hyung, it’s sick but it’s you. That’s who you are. But I can’t say I’m tired of your frustrating actions and just leave you, because that’s who I am. I don’t leave. I don’t disappoint.”
Sehun doesn’t know why he still bothers. Chanyeol never changes. It sickens him, but he doesn’t have a choice. He hurt one of their own friends this time. Maybe it isn’t just about what Chanyeol did that irks him, maybe, it’s about what he didn’t do that hurt him even more.
Two steps before Sehun walks out of the dining hall, “But maybe this time, you’ve disappointed one too many.”
—
“Jong…in?”
A loud thud resonates through the dance studio, one that sounds even louder in Kyungsoo’s head.
“Hyung, I—“
“Why?” Kyungsoo feels his face go red. He doesn’t really understand why. Isn’t it only logical that he feels sad, betrayed, instead of mad? Isn’t that what a normal person would feel, seeing his boyfriend sucking the face off someone else?”
Jongin doesn’t have an answer.
“How long have you been fucking each other?”
Chanyeol smirks this time, albeit still recovering a little from the surprise entrance, “Longer than expected.”
Kyungsoo feels his nails dig into the bed of his palms. Maybe he is a little more than angry.
“Jongin-ah, why? Why didn’t you just break up with me? I—I even let you take me last week,” Kyungsoo chokes on the last word, “I let you take everything. I gave…everything…”
And after twenty seconds of piercing silence, all that came was an ‘I’m sorry’ and the shuffling of feet.
Kyungsoo still doesn’t understand. Jongin, the little brother he has loved almost his entire life, and Chanyeol, the good friend and confidante to both of them.
It takes a few silent steps and a pair of long arms to wrap around him for him to jump a little, “Hyung, I’m sorry. I’m sorry about everything,”
It isn’t the voice Kyungsoo’s hoping for.
“You don’t have to be sorry about anything. It isn’t your fault, it isn’t—“
“I know, but I could have kept him better. I could have done something.”
The two sit in the middle of the studio, with Sehun’s arms tightly wrapped around Kyungsoo’s tiny frame. No one moves.
It is two minutes into the silence that Kyungsoo questions himself as to why there is hot liquid spilling out of his eyes, and in that same two minutes, Sehun, too, finds himself holding back tears. Maybe, he thinks, it’s because of Kyungsoo. He admits, he’s a crybaby, he can’t stand seeing other people cry.
Or maybe, it’s because he thinks he has failed in being a friend, both to Chanyeol and Kyungsoo.
Maybe, because I could have made him love me.
BUAHAHAHAHA THIS WAS TOTALLY FUN TO WRITE NO HATE TO CHANYEOL I MEAN I LOVE THAT KID BUT HE’S GETTING IN BETWEEN MY OTP I JUST HAD TO. INTRODUCING THE FAMILY WRECKER AKA PARK CHANYEOL. \O/
and if it isn’t obvious enough, the top half happens before the bottom half.
Hello, this is wukyungsoos.
I originally did not intend to do such a post but a dear friend of mine had been experiencing the same thing and has spoken up, so i thought I should too.
It has come to my attention that my photos have not only been reposted on various sites (including tumblr) which honestly I’m okay with. If you want reblogs and likes of your own, that’s fine by me. But what i’m seriously NOT okay with is people cropping out my watermark. I know it’s impossible for NO ONE to edit my photos and that’s why i allowed editing/adjusting, just please, all i asked for was that you do not crop out my watermark.
But there are some people whom I have come across that not only cropped out my watermark, edited my photo without crediting me, AND EVEN ADD IN THEIR OWN WATERMARK.
This, i really do not understand. Just because you edited a photo, does it really make it yours? Do you really have the right to claim it as your own?
I don’t think people understand how much hard work it is for fans who provide hq photos and fansites, even, to take a single photo for you guys. Not only is the DSLR + LENS incredibly heavy, we have to be on standby with the cameras covering our entire faces nearly throughout the concert, just so we wouldn’t miss the perfect moment. It’s extremely tiring, not to mention extremely painful.
Out of the approx 50+ photos I shared of nu'est+apink this time around, those 50 photos were carefully chosen out of nearly 2 thousand photos, and it took me 3 nights of barely sleeping to choose and edit them all.
So you may think, isn’t it my own fault? No one forced me to take photos, isn’t it?
The only reason why I take photos at every concert, not only because I want to keep those memories with me, is because I want to spread the love of the idol(s) i love, in hope that more people would come to love them too.
You may also think, “there are already so many edits out there, why shouldn’t I do it too? Nothing’s there to stop me.”
Just because there are already a lot of people editing photos when they shouldn’t, does that make it any more okay for you to do it too? Does two wrong really make a right?
I don’t think so.
I could have shared my photos on a different website, one with a lesser chance of being rudely edited, but I just thought that tumblr would be the easiest platform to share photos and reach out to fans and potential fans. That’s my main objective.
I try really hard to please everyone by placing my watermarks at an inconspicuous corner so as to not ruin the photo’s quality or block the subject’s face or whatever. But obviously I was shooting my own foot. I just made it a whole lot easier to get edited.
Honestly, it’s really inevitable that people would want to edit my photos, because I know my editing skills aren’t exactly the best, so if people decide that they want to edit it and make it better, which would include cropping out my watermark to have a clearer view of the subject, IT’S REALLY OKAY. Keep it as a wallpaper or a screensaver, whatever.
BUT PLEASE, JUST DO NOT SHARE IT. Not only is it rude to the photographer, it’s hurtful that all the credits are going to someone who doesn’t deserve it at the least.
I’m speaking as a fan, as well as a photographer who understand what fansites/fan photographers go through.
I hope editors will think about this before doing something that they really shouldn’t.
Respect is all I ask for. Please give that to us, who try our best for you too.